Dude you know you make me so angry. You'd think you'd be smart enough to know when a good thing is here waiting for you. Now I know I can never say this to your face. I'm not that brave, but sometimes I wish I was. With you...gawd your so fickle. I don't know when I touch a bad spot and I'm always tip-toeing around you to make sure I don't because if I lost you, I'd lose myself. Man you drive me so crazy it's unbelieveable. I wake up in the mornings hoping and wishing, "Today will be the day he realizes I'm perfect for him." And every day I am disappointed. It seems that to you all I am good for is a quick f**k and that's it. But you keep telling me, "it's not you it's me." Haha yeah right. Every guy says that honey. You are not the first. You tell me you are afraid of ruining out friendship, honey you are doing more damage to it by not dating me than you would be by dating me. Everyone tells me to move on but what they don't realize is I've tried. I made a bet to not talk to you and damned if every second I didn't talk to you that my heart was not aching and BEGGING me to just lose the bet. Oh and when you finally gave in and held me to you I felt so...right. So loved, so damned special I nearly cried. I thought, "Maybe now he realizes what I am to him, maybe now he knows what life would be like without me." All the while you loved someone else. Haha wow stupid could I of been? I mean what girl is stupid enough to chase a guy who is already in love? Because I knew she wasn't the one for you, I was and always will be. I foolishly hoped that once she broke your heart you'd realize it then, but still no. I know it was awful of me, but I would of taken care of you...I could of loved you better than she could. I don't know why you won't give me a chance...I deserve one don't I? Am I such a horrible person to you that I don't deserve one? Boy, you rip me up inside, always telling me your sorry for hurting me. Damn boy if you'd just give me a chance I'd forgive you of anything and everything. You know I sit around all day hoping you will text me? I figure if you truly wish to talk to me you will text me...so when I don't hear from you for a long time I realize just how uninterested in me you are. Every day I hope that I will forget you and move on, but everyday I hope even more that you will love me like I love you. I hope one day soon you'll realize that the biggest mistake of your life was not giving me a chance. I hope you will read this one day and realize how you affect me. I can only hope...
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